Alfie Acting Up

Love Story: The Beginning 3.1

I'm breaking part 3 in 2 parts

If this relationship was a rollercoaster then this is the part where the seatbelt would break and I would be going around the loopty loop hanging on for dear life. Spring 07 is when it got bad to the point I completely lost who I was as a person. I just remember sex with CW and me chasing him around the south east. He was living with me at the time and I was working at one point 2 jobs in school I lost my God father and great grandmother at this point. I've lost a lot of important people since I've been in college. Too many funerals, but I guess that's apart of getting older. After I came back from my godfather's funerals things began to change. CW announced he was moving to ATL (Red Flag!). I was a hurt, shocked, and confused by his departure but we decided to stay together and have a long distance relationship. It didn't take long for the messages, text, and rumors to flood in. boys from all over were getting in contact with me about this nigga. My dumbass ignored it all. CW would come back every once in a while for fraternity events never to see me. All the while I'm getting closer to ML. ML was a good friend through all this. Kept me grounded but I always felt CW and ML messed around over winter break. I was putting all my trust in CW and ML losing myself in the process. I'm dealing with all this gay dramatics and still playing straight. It's a very strange thing and in a way it splits your personality to the point you don't even know who you are anymore. At the same time I felt very liberated.

The Future

Tell me why I'm so damn fly?

Feeling Down

School is winding down and I'm feeling a tad bit depressed. I pin pointed it yesterday after I got a rejection letter from Rutgers and I got a worried for my future. I'm telling yall this shit could have been in a movie. There were 2 or 3 beautiful tears and that's it. I sucked it up though and hopped on the bus and headed to the library. I've been through so much these past 4 years in some ways it feels like it's amounted to nothing and in others I feel like it's been the most liberating experience. I don't know how to feel. I know I'll be alright I'm too close to my goal to ever fall into obscurity but I'm scared in so many ways.

0 Tolerance

I've been drinking a lot lately. Coolers and beer but I feel like that shit add up. I need to institute a 0 tolerance policy with liquor. I'm trying to live yo. I feel something in me that needs to come out. A better person? A stronger person? I hate finding comfort in liquor very weak. It wasn't a bad week because I feel very blessed but I was having these mini moments all week. Lawd help us all!

Trigger

Put your hands around it

Feel that smith and western cold steel

This aint no bb this shit is real

Kind of heavy 4lbs turn the safety off

If you hit the bulls eye I'm gone take it off

Cock it back, aim steady, now you locked and loaded

Don't be scared….

 

Pull the Trigger

Going pound for pound

Heavy hitter

Ooo I love the sound of that trigger

Click click pull that trigger

 

This bullet proof vest got me cocky

Hollow points coming strong but they can't stop me

You got me ducking dodging weaving like the matrix

Slow motion, don't shoot another round or I'll hit the pavement

 

Pull the Trigger

Going pound for pound

Heavy hitter

Oyo I love the sound of that trigger

Click click pull that trigger

 

Mmm spray that Uzi it crazy how this going

Shoot gun barrel make sure no one else around

He said he shoot if I ever let this thing out

Bang bang, bullets hurting you a heavy hitter

Don't stop keep squeezing on that trigger

 

 

 

 

 

 

HAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLEEEE BERRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYY!

I love Halle she is unphased by this song, but gets up and dances and KILLS! She so beautiful inside and out.

9-8-10

She did great the first 10 of the season

"If you see me in a fight with a bear, help the bear"

What?! lol!

Testin out Youtube

Dont laugh! The pimple in the 2nd vid is vicious!

I had a great weekend!

It was so fun besides the bigot I had a lot of fun with Guitar Hero and tanning at the pool! I haven't taken a bath since Friday and I love it!

The King Roach

I just killed the biggest roach. Omg it was so damn big! It had these 2 long legs and this brown coat. The nigga hopped out my closet and stopped. I didn't know what to do. So I just froze. I can't step on a roach that's too intimate. So I decided to sneak pass his ass and get the raid. This nigga started walking away. I sprayed him down. He jetted thumping the wall Omg! So he run around the whole room and hit his back. He kept kicking and kicking Omg for like 10 min. he wouldn't die. So I get the broom and gently sweep the thing up. I felt weight on the damn broom. I can't even sleep now. This battle lasted 30-40 min. I feel like shit is crawling on me.

TWITTS

I am the only one that is conciously avoiding twitter? why do i need to know every singl fucking detail of your life?


1:20pm: Wipes ass
12:06pm: I decided to take a shit
11:42am: My stomach is rumbling
11:31am: Eats Mcdonalds

Follow me...?

Like, what? No! This is some "Big Brother" Orson Wells shit. I can't.

This damn VISTA!

I love Vista I like the look of it (glossy!) and its very customizable but this shit is buggy as hell! Get it together Msoft. My laptop is brand new and it stutter then I update it and its fine for like a week, then it gets all clumsy again I don't understand. I hear this Windows 7 is the beez knees though so I can't wait for that I mos def will be updating because I can't deal with this no more.

Pharell Want that Mcgriddle

I think I’m having a Stroke

I ate long john silver's and a checkerburger yesterday and my body is paying me back because im in class and I think I'm having some sort of stroke! I'm literally grabbing at my heart. Lawd have mercy!

8-8-9! GO KIM!

Love Story: The Beginning part 2

• I'm going to use initials from now on.
  

Never would I have thought meeting 2 people would change my life so drastically. I hope it doesn't sound like I'm giving anyone too much, but things have changed so much since I met these 2. I am not a really outgoing person I like to stay in my comfort zone. ML is the type that does what he wants and I don't think that will ever change. So when I met it and he invited me to chill with him and DM I was kind of excited. They were very relatable like-minded people as far as music and interest I found myself saying "me too" often. We became close during this fashion show and I never suspected that they were dating, even though I was dropping them off at the same house every night late at night. I was so naïve and a part of me think I was making myself that way. I think I had a crush on both of them which is natural and I feel like they both had and a crush on me, and that's fine until I met CW. CW was too fly nice face, car, body, style, swag, everything u could superficially want from someone he possessed. I was in love. Or at least I thought I was. CW has the cherry y'all, sigh. I was 19 and I don't regret much, but I regret that situation. I will blame it on youth, but I never want my desire to cloud my judgment again, it's a sign a weakness. There was a bit mess Between DM, CW, and I. I feel after I started dealing with him my life changed so much. There was a mix of sexual liberation and social withdrawal. I began lying about my whereabouts, who I was with, what I was doing. And I felt like among my peers I was becoming a ghost, a shell of my former self. Which I was but I was loving it back then. It wasn't and still isn't anyone's business what I was doing. CW had my mind and my body and he didn't take it I gave it to him. A "Grade A" mess! I was introduced to about 3 of his ex's by him. We were walking around claiming I was his cousin to cover up our secret which wasn't really a secret to anyone but me. This around December 2006 by this point I was went to my first gay club, I started smoking, and was neglecting the people around me. DM and ML had broken up by this point and DM wasn't really a part of the group it had gotten quite messy between the four of us. I don't remember anything from that break accept my wisdom tooth causing me so much pain and talking to CW on the phone constantly. Seeds were being planted that winter for the spring.

Keri Hilson: In a Perfect World Review

Hands down the best CD leaked out right now. Keri is a true talent and she fuses pop, RnB, even techno effortlessly. I recommend which is strange because just a couple of weeks ago I wasn't really checking for her too many push backs and too many singles, which is still a problem because you have heard half this CD. Even still what is here is excellent and above average. She is a true talent.

My favorite songs included.

Alienated

Intuition

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