Jumbled Thoughts

Omg I feel like im going crazy! Trapped in this damn house, broke, lonely its so strange seeing my peers live their life while im stuck in this place a year behind. Its really strange. Im a bout to log off of facebook and all that social networking again it really isn't helping. Im just sitting here drinking my Smirnoff bang on the keyboard hoping it all makes sense. Im not even gon spell check this! GIVING IT TO YOU RAW AND UNCUT STARIAGHT OFF THE DOME! Listenignt o this amerie cd its pretty hot. Theres this one song where she talks about not being able to trust someone because she doesn't even trust love! How deep is that? I don't know why love and emotion plays such a large role in my life. I feel like some people can walk around with their emotions in check and I really wish I could be that way sometimes. i have this persistent anxiety that seems to be taking over my life. This fear of failure its so scary to me.im looking at my schedule for November and its looking real dry. I missed the first ever Kean historical society meeting and I was pissed! All because of work. Work work work work work work work… im damn grateful for that job but Abercrombie aint shit! Its all a system very intricate and very faulty. Which comes full circle to watching my peers live their dreams. I sit and think and wonder and cry about what if I graduated from the University of Florida, the only college I ever applied to when I used to be a traight a student. The last 4 years got me feeling hollow. Extremely vacant its hard for me to even care about much of anything. I was talkin to my bestie deon and we were comparing our freshman year. Its sad that we both came to the conclusion that we didn't even have a chance. For different reasons of course. It was just a series of unfortunate events. Black, gay, broke, in a country swamp. I learned a lot tho and met some amazing people. I just need that FIRE! I don't really have a passion or hobby. i don't even play videogames like I used to. Its really upsetting. expressing. And while I love being home im slowly starting to remember why I left. Its too many women here! Ugh like 7 of them in one house. And they all loud and rude and it's a lot. There is constant emasculation from every angle. Gay men on tv are faggots and sissies its just too much on my psyche. I feel like im in a void I guess that's all for now. Trust there is more im just tryin to get back into this thing.

Master Class

My boy Daryl has a monologue coming up soon. He's a great guy energetic very motivated and muy intelligente lol. I'll be there! My dude is definitely Alfie Approved. It's good to see my peers excelling and living their dreams.

Here is the press release:

Up-and–coming talent will share industry challenges with intimate cabaret.

October 06, 2009 (UNION/BLOOMFIELD, NJ) — Daryl Stewart is not your typical mediocre young adult: He is a powerful stage actor and vocalist, both in musicals and concert work. He's known for vanishing magically into his characters, whether on film or on stage. And in Early November, he will return to Piano's with his debut cabaret "Master Class". His unique musical stylings will be on display for all to see during the intimate vulnerable performance at the theater on November 8, 2009. His anticipated debut solo album that is a companion piece to the show will be released in stores and online weeks after the show!

Accompanied by his musical director, Melissa Abate, Stewart will serenade the audience with his favorite standards and jams from the past 10 years of his career. In between songs, he will share poignant moments, tribulations and challenges from his colorful and artistic journey with his "apprentices".

The Union New Jersey native and up and coming star of stage and screen made his theatrical debut in a community production of "Oliver Twist!" and hasn't stopped performing since. In addition to a celebrated theatrical career, Stewart has appeared on television, in short films, and more. He is the host of a weekly radio show entitled "The Daryl Stewart Show" on Internet radio and an advocate for Arts Education. He currently attends New York University pursuing a dual degree in Theatre/Social Science.

On stage, he is best known for his role as Mereb in the celebrated 2005 production of Disney's "AIDA", which earned the budding star a Papermill Playhouse Rising Star Nomination for Best Supporting Actor. In the Spring of this year, he appeared in the racy, provocative musical Wolfe's "The Wild Party" at the Westminster Arts Center in NJ to rave reviews!

Stewart's Cabaret Show," MASTER CLASS" will be performed at Piano's, 36 Broad Street, Bloomfield NJ 07003. The Show will be NOVEMBER 8, @ 2009 at 7 pm sharp, with a running time of 90 minutes. THERE IS NO COVER CHARGE, but there is a $15 food/drink minimum. For Reservations or for more information on the show please email dstewartlive@gmail.com or call (973) 743-7209. For more information please visit www.darylstewart.net. When asked for a comment Stewart exclaimed "The show will be an intimate chance for everyone to experience my artistic journey; my trials, tribulations, highs and lows on my quest to become a professional performing artist. In addition, its my chance to show the world, not all young African American men my age are negative, some of us are quite talented and doing well."