I'm about to leave class and it just dawned on me that I have really calmed down since school started. I haven't really been out definitely haven't gotten drunk and I feel quite virginal. Iono know why maybe it's the season. I want to do so well here there's really no excuse. Time here should go by quickly enough. I pray.
Gotcha!
Put ya hands up!
Creeping
Sneakin
Freakin
Leaving
Somebody got to go
This aint gon work no more
U don't get sick of lying?
cuz im sick of trying
I was thinking if we did this would I still be
Everything you promised me
Would you want to get to know me
love me and hold me
oooo just the thought
I never did this before
made love to my buddy
but the way he kis me and hug me
I feel like it's a sin
sex with my friend
I just don't want us to end
LOL
I'm in such a good place right now that I can't believe it. It's like when good things happen to me I don't really feel like I deserve it. I hate that I feel that way but it's all a learning process. I feel healthy and happy. Like I have some sort of grasp on my life it's so strange because I never felt that way. I so love my friends and family right now. Everyone is growing and blossoming. This is the time of growth.
Oh Whitney she gave me everything I need this week. I enjoyed that interview so much that I had to dig deep in my collection for a lost jewel of music The Preachers Wife Soundtrack. Oh how the angels sing! And Whitney's voice is truly angelic. Her voice carries this album to dizzying heights that seem to transcend its gospel roots into and all around inspiration. I feel myself drifting away from religion lately. I don't know why. I know I believe but I also know that because of the way I was born my seat in heaven isn't guaranteed. However, this album has me believing again. Not just in God but in myself and in love. Songs like "You are loved" reinforces themes self love while also reminding me of the love that surrounds me. "I Go to the Rock" this song takes me straight to church! She should have gotten her voice insured because the way she this song she could convert bin Laden. I also love how it's not just a Gospel CD but an RnB CD. Songs like "I Believe in You and Me "and "My Heart is calling" give strong baby making vibes. I just have nothing but high regards for this CD. I remember my mother playing this around the house back when I was just a kid. It resonated with me then and it resonates today
I'm going g to try and post more regularly. I'm back in school and its full swing I'm in the library now just finishing some homework. I know nobody reads my blog but if you do read it please don't be offended. These are my thoughts and feelings I could never put a lid on them they are out of my control and all my own. This is my baby! Me and Alfie go hard!
So enjoy!
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